Absent minded 

I didn’t know it was Tuesday  yesterday. I didn’t know it until today and that’s why I had written a Wordless Wednesday post on a Tuesday. 😕 

Have you heard this lyrics from Minnale movie? 

Naatkal neeludhe, nee engo ponadhum… *

(* – days are longer since you’ve been gone)

I’m exactly in that state.. But my husband hasn’t gone anywhere, we’re in the same house, only not at the same time. While I’m in morning shift, he is doing night shift. He leaves by 4pm and I reach home by 6pm. 

After 4 years of long distance relationship, this past year was God given to me. We’ve never ever spent a single day apart.. And now it’s like hell. I talk to a sleepy B before leaving to office and he talks to a sleepy me when he returns back at 2am. I was desperately hoping it was Wednesday yesterday and thinking there was just two more days to go for the weekend. 

This has been a horrible week for me. I don’t  want to rant here, but off late I’m doing only that.. I feel weak, which is partly because I’m sick but also because I miss the male species of the house. 

Someone who is always talking nonsense, 

Who is always pulling me, nagging me to watch this n that on YouTube

who talks cricket walks cricket, lives cricket and makes my ears ache because of all those cricket trivia

who Doesn’t mind what I cook, whether I cook.. 

who is with me , no matter what

who doesn’t just cry for me but also cries along with me

You, yes, You … You are being terribly missed and I really really hope you get to join that stupid big ass company which hasn’t sent your joining letter yet and leave this bpo job and be with me, all the time.. 😭

A messed up relationship

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Infinity was what we had in mind when we were together. Yeah the silly fights and wordless days have been there, but 2 years is a really long time for not talking, dont u think?
BFFs…. The first face that comes to my mind when i come across that word is you. Whenever i come across a friendship quote, or read something related to school life, watch the pretty little liars being there for one another.. All i could do is sigh and think of you. I don’t even remember how it all started, or the words exchanged, but i do regret them every single day. Best friend or boyfriend… y did life give me an awkward choice? I wanted us to be together, wanted things to be better between you and him. In a way, i knew him through you and i am forever grateful for that. You hated him. Never think i’m taking sides, coz he hated you too, but he respected my feelings and decided to put things aside. But everything tumbled out of control, and all thats left is me missing you.
There’s that longing deep inside.. that the 5 of us should hang out together, laugh like crazy.. Reminisce our good ol’ skool days.. Plan out our weddings..
Do you remember the first letter you sent when i was in Pune? Maybe i started caring more for you after that.. Maybe thats when i crossed a line and interfered more in your love life. All i wanted was to make sure you made the right decision. I’m sorry if i had been OTT…
I just hope someday you would wake up and realize what we had.

Happy Birthday Liya.. Its not and never will be the same without you.

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Well, that’s just an excuse..